Help!

Warning: my head is spinning.

I'm making progress with this guy. He's the one I've been into forever and I'm head over heels for him. We spent some time together yesterday, talking and cuddling. It was really fun, really comfortable. And he kissed me, just on the cheek. I'm sorry to report that I had an attack of the butterflies and didn't just turn and kiss him back for real like I probably should have... but anyway, it wasn't awkward or anything and we were together for like an hour after that and things were okay.

But today, he seems to have totally pulled back. Except he seems like he's in a better mood than he was before. But... well, he's not all over me, wanting to know when he can see me again, etc. etc., which is what I WISH he was doing. Is it even slightly reasonable to expect that, or am I being, as I think, irrational and impatient?

Oh, I don't know what to think. And I only see him once a week or so because we live some distance away, and I'm not sure that I'll have a chance to see him again to make my intentions as perfectly clear as I'd like.

And how do I make intentions clear? Flirt hardcore? Say it flat out? Pin him against a wall and kiss him senseless? (Somehow I think that would be awkward if he wasn't expecting or wanting anything quite that forward...)

But if he's withdrawing slightly, is now the time to make my intentions clear? Or is now the time to play flirtation games? Or...

I just don't know. Insight? Please? I'm desperate, inexperienced, and trapped in my own head. I like him too much to think straight.

Long time no post...

Wow, it's been a while, huh?

Just a quick progress update: I've gotten MUCH better at striking up conversations with people, have developed comfortable acquaintances with lots of people, guys and girls, and am beginning to not exactly mak the first move, but let guys know that it's okay to make the first move. It's worked --- four guys have asked me out within the past month. For me, this is MAJOR progress.

And I'm totally flirting. It's just teasing... that's all there is to it... teasing with the occasional I-like-you comment thrown in.

And it's FUN.

Red lipstick

WOW, are there a lot of cute guys at this school.

So, my roommates and I have been bemoaning our lack of boyfriends --- along with being gorgeous, the guys here are very much outnumbered --- and I've been working on my flirting and conversational skills whenever I get a chance. Making eye contact, all that.

A couple of mini-reports:

1) I went to this assembly thing, and my roommate and I came in a little bit late. There were two seats next to these guys, so I asked if they were open and the guy on the end said they were. So we sat down... and he started to preen. And preen. And adjust his socks. And his hair. And cross his leg over his knee so it was pointing my way. And he'd glance at me. And he sort of lacked social graces --- was texting all throught the meeting and was wearing sweat socks with moccasins (I try to be an accepting person, but some things are just wrong) --- but it was still totally empowering to be able to affect him that much.

2) A guy who lives nearby who knows my roommates went out of his way to talk to me today. He saw me come in the building, and then twenty minutes later he was at my elbow, making small talk. I don't think I made him fall in love, but I did make him laugh.

3) Went to an arts council meeting, and there was a cute guy there. I glanced his way a couple of times, did the on-again off-again eye contact thing, offered a couple small smiles, and eventually he was looking at me every time I glanced that way and was doing everything he could to get attention. I think this is just his personality, but still... gives me hope!

And, today I discovered the great secret of catching male attention:

RED LIPSTICK.

That's all it takes. Red lipstick and every eye turns your direction.

Anyway... yup, life's good.

New Year's Objectives...

All right... I'm headed out of town for New Year's. I will be going to --- yay! --- a city. That means people. That means men. That means ample flirting opportunity.

Since I'm not even good at basic flirting, let alone PUA or seduction, these be my goals:

1) Flirt with everything that moves. Male, female, animal, whatever.

2) Ooze charm. I'm going to try the "Mama Gena's School of Womanly Arts" method here, that being to simply think yummy thoughts about the person I'm looking at/talking to. We'll see how it works...

3) Use flirting to make my life easier on at least one occasion, assuming an occasion presents itself.

4) Make eye contact! Make them look away first.

Any other suggestions are welcome... until I get back, by all means comment on the previous post --- I'm curious to hear what people have to say --- and I'll give a report as soon as I get home.

Happy New Year!!