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So, I don't really even know how this happened... but I got myself a stalker! He's only a year older than I am and incredibly obnoxious. I tried being indirect to get rid of him. It didn't work. I tried being more direct. That didn't work. I went for really direct, and am rude to the guy every time I see him (which feels SO weird, because I am almost pathologically nice most of the time). Still hasn't worked. He's just decided he's in the "friend zone," and is perfectly cheery about it. Still texts nonstop, still keeps trying to ask me out... it's frigging obnoxious. However, he leaves town in a month. I'm just going to wait it out.

Also, guys keep asking for my number. This is weird, because 1) this rarely happens, and 2) I don't even open them or anything. They just come up --- one guy at a cafe had a whole gimmick about having me come read something he wrote, and it was basically just a two-page lead-in that asked me for my number --- and another guy started chatting me up at work and ended with, "So, uh, this might be kinda awkward, but is there some way I could get in touch with you?" It's been quite unusual. I'm not into either of the guys, but I'm not really sure why it was happening. I didn't look particularly good or make eye contact or anything. All I know is that in both cases, I was really into what I was doing. In the cafe, I'd been working on my novel, and at work, I'd been listening to an awesome episode of the Pickup Podcast. I suppose passion really is contagious.

On the podcasts, check 'em out! http://www.pickuppodcast.com . I highly recommend them! They're done by two guys, AJ and Jordan, and I really like their content and their attitudes. You can tell they're into this because they love women and want to connect with people, and they're really upbeat and positive and a lot of fun. I'm on episode 15 or something like that; I'm going to work all the way up to where they're at now. Really informative stuff, and the podcasts pump up my inner game like crazy.

I've got another issue right now, beyond the stalker and the random number requests: a bad case of oneitis. Not cool, esp. because the guy has a girlfriend, who is also my friend. Yeah. Sticky. Also, he's a total player. I know this, and I fall for him anyway. He's kissed pretty much every female in my acquaintance, but not me. He's tried... but I haven't reciprocated because he's the one guy I get so nervous around I can't think straight. (I've mentioned him before in this blog. Same recurring guy you'll see below.) I'm getting better, since I've been trying to think of him just as a friend --- helps with the butterflies --- but it's still distracting to always have him in the back of my mind.

This isn't a NEW thing --- I've been head over heels for him for two years --- but it flames up sometimes and takes a while to dampen back down. If he was single, I think at this point I'd honestly just make out with him and try to get it out of my system, but he's not so I won't. We flirt a lot, and I think it'd actually be pretty easy to move in for a kiss or whatever sometime, but it's not worth the repercussions. So I get to wait, hope he's single again sometime soon, and try to move on and flirt with other guys. Kinda hard in this itsy bitsy town, but I'll be back to school soon. Once I'm back I'm going to start on the StyleLife Challenge again. I attempted it once but didn't get past day one. No real motivation and it's hard when you already know everyone in town.

Anyway... that's my update. Don't know if anyone's still reading, but if you are, comment me, or hit me up. I'd love to chat with some of you sometime! sheclectica at gmail dot com